The New Year

So since my first post, it has been a crazy new year.

New Year's was fun. I spent it with my brother and Cara and her family... and of course Kyle! :) It was simple, low key and a nice way to start the new year.

Of course then came the down side to the new year. 2 funerals. Bleh. the first one didn't hit me too hard. My granfathers ex wife. She did our hair cuts and such when we were little. All in all, it was a death and got me thinking. You know, the whole make everything count, live life to the fullest, make sure the people who mean the most to you know it and always say I love you. The second, my great aunt. It was a better thing though, she was suffering so much. Seeing her at the funeral, she looked so peaceful and so much better. I touched her hands- which were SO swollen when she was in the hospital- the were back to a 'normal'. I have never touched someoen who has passed. Her hands were like a wax figure, making it more real to me to know that our bodies are just a transport for us on Earth til the day "our place is prepared and ready for us to go home."

Life is back to normal, well as normal as my life gets! :) I spent last weekend- Saturday with the fam at my parents house. Kyle is getting so big... though he's still little :) I love to hold him. He loves to laugh at Aunt Nikki... I am obviously funny and/or funny looking to him! I am again, going to my parents house tomorrow and we are BBQing and hanging out :)

I finally spent some time with my friend lauria and Rob. We went to the Tap Room in San Marcos. Had a blast. I love the simple down to earth evenings out that turn into all nighters closing down the bar! I haven't been out much lately and it was a nice change. I miss my friends, though it is probally my fault we havent hung out much. Though then again, the holidays were busy for everyone!

Dating.... HAHA such a joke! So many good men out ther but just not for me. I know one day I'll find that one guy I can 'stand'. I don't know, its so hard to explain. I guess with being so "independent" the past few years, its hard for me to get into a relationship and share... Sadly. I do know what i want in a man and maybe Iam just looking too hard. Its hard not to though. getting older, seeing other happy, getting married, having kids! One day, I'll have it... one day :)